(Note: The following was written by Joanna Cook and was posted at Marty Rathbun's blog. Entitled  Labyrinth or Liberty?, this is one of the best pieces I have ever read about the desolation that is the Church of Scientology experience. Joanna really communicates the abysmal, spiritually failed misadventure that is the Church of Scientology. Joanna's work deserves attention and so I am posting the second half of her essay here)/
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"The  cruel part is that Scientology, as the organization stands now, is like  living in a snow globe world. It’s supposed to be perfect, but it  isn’t, and the world outside is supposed to be within our reach but it  isn’t. 
 The  “ideal scene” is always beyond reach, belonging to someone outside  ourselves, and nothing we can do allows us to grasp it, even for a  moment. We capture fragments, promises, of it, like snowflakes that melt  in our hand.
 The  Church has these snow globe events that promise a utopian world if only  everyone had Scientology, yet we have to give up our right to our own  life in order to “Clear The Planet”. Has anyone ever given a concise and  definite definition to what that means? I’ve had staff intimate it  means we cross the threshold of theta versus entheta on a planet-wide  scale, so that it means people’s entheta gets converted Poof! with a  wave of awesome theta overtaking everything. And this is achieved solely  through the IAS and library campaigns (not the actual Scientology  services, but promises of future services) carried on the backs of broke  parishioners. So basically, it means that Clearing the Planet is making  sure everyone has an abundance of theta except us, yes? Wait. Huh?
 Yet  we must continue forward, because the fate of the entire sector of the  universe rests on each one of our shoulders. If we fail now, we’ve  doomed the entire race of humans, and all thetans everywhere (even  though we don’t exist in space or time) now and forever, to the worst  kind of misery imaginable. Our children will grow up in a cruel, bitter  world devoid of any succor, so instead they should join the Sea Org and  given to a life of “service”. But it’s okay, because they’re salvaging  the universe. 
 And  yet we can’t progress on the Bridge; instead of the glorious golden  contraption leading us out of darkness to the rich and bountiful place  of Total Freedom, we have a strange tangle of wooden planks and rope  that becomes a labyrinth halfway across the chasm with a recurring  return to this place called Clear. If we manage to escape out of the  labyrinth, we’re struck by lightning before we can take the next step  across, and if we survive that, we discover the world at the end is  another snow globe – a place that is promised, supposed to be perfect,  yet just out of our reach – that will only happen if the ones who  finally escaped the labyrinth can convince everyone else to cross the  chasm. 
 And  no matter how much we take a sledge hammer to the glass of our snow  globe, bang our heads against it, consult auditors and ethics officers  and even chaplains to understand why the glass won’t crack, it’s  indestructible. That world that is supposed to be ours can never be  ours, and it’s all our own individual fault we can’t attain it, and  because of our individual failure, we’ve screwed it up for everyone  else. It’s premeditated, and designed to drive people insane. And yet  it’s called Scientology.
 People  are in quite a conundrum. Here they are, in the middle of a chasm, and  the world they’re trying to leave behind was awful – it had fears,  insecurities, needless doubts and pain and hopelessness, and yet the  price to attain the perfect world free of all that is creating a  constant state of those things. Then, they’ve got their whole family or  their children or someone they love entangled in this mess and they  can’t move back without them, yet they can’t move forward, and they’re  stuck in this labyrinth that is slowly eating them alive or sapping them  of sanity, and the fact that they feel anything negative at all is  entirely their fault, or the fault of strange beings or past incidences  or otherworldly phenomena that can only be solved by moving forward. 
 Yet  anytime they think it might be possible to actually move forward,  there’s punishment in the shadows of their hope, and after a while they  instinctively will hold themselves back from hoping, or from trying, and  that again is cause for punishment. 
 In  essence, the game where everyone wins is now the hell where everyone  loses. Even the snow globe ideal orgs, in their perfect buildings with  the perfect renovations, are built on musical chairs (swiping staff from  other places), extortion, in locations that are unwise, or for orgs  that were financially struggling to begin with, or based in countries  under tyranny… they are supposed to be perfect, but something about them  just isn’t. And people who are aware, who are supposed to be the public  we seek, will know it, and instinctively they’ll stay away. Meanwhile,  the org itself will be destroyed because the multiple policies  protecting it have been utterly violated, and its destruction will be  the fault of the public and the staff who were supposed to make it go  right. 
 This  organization that calls itself Scientology has made a premeditated  effort to lock each dynamic into Scientology, at the exclusion of any  other entity. For instance, the 8th dynamic is apparently only understood when you have a total grasp of the 7th, which you can’t fully understand until you’ve reached the top of the Bridge. The 6th dynamic (which is constantly at war with us) can only be conquered through Scientology. The 5th  can only be salvaged from nuclear war if we Clear the Planet. We’re  supposed to Clear the Planet even though “Wogs” can’t or won’t read  (like they used to, they need video explanations now or they won’t get  it), can’t understand basic ideas without studying 18 volumes and  numerous lectures, are drug addicts, 1.1, and generally not to be  trusted. Seriously, they are rather pitiful creatures when compared to  us Homo Novises. They have case that sprouts off, they compare  Scientology to all these other awful and weird practices, and  psychiatrists everywhere have convinced them they need psychiatric drugs  when all they need is Dianetics. (Plus O/Ws, Sec-Checking, donations,  attendance at events, Evil purpose checks, oh we’re not supposed to  mention that; Dianetics solves everything, per our patter when we do the  stress tests.) And groups! My gosh, imagine trying to find a decent  group outside of Scientology. What with all the people below 2.0 and  faulty/inefficient technology, and ignorance on how to run a business or  get along with others… so it’s better finding work and friends amongst  people who understand, and can do proper admin scales, conditions, etc.  Then there’s the family, which of course can only be whole and happy if  Scientology is being applied. We have marriage counseling, life repair  for the wayward kiddies, ethics officers standing by, and staff  positions available so no one has to go to college to get a worthwhile  job. Not that anyone would want to waste time with college anyway. Any  friends, relatives, etc. not Scientologists are advised to become  Scientologists as soon as possible. And as for the first dynamic, well,  that’s not important in the scheme of things, is it? Necessity level  demands we do what is the greatest good for the greatest number of  dynamics, and only by consistently acting along those lines and acting  as a 3.5+ on the Tone Scale can one ever have any real happiness at all.
 Naturally,  the greatest good for the greatest number of dynamics means what is  best for the largest number of nameless faces that will benefit by our  campaigns to Clear the Planet. Savings, what’s that? What’s the point in  holding out for a rainy day when the fate of the world is in our hands  right now? My Golly, don’t you know we’re already too late? The Big Man  has his finger on the Big Red Button in this very instant, and the  psyches are all but ready to take over government and all the schools,  and only the IAS and the library campaign can save the day. You don’t  see the connection, you say? Off with your head! I mean, over to Ethics  for you. 
 So  one day you’ve had enough, and decide you want to walk away, but you  can’t. You have no choice. Exactly, it’s called Blackmail. If you leave,  you lose your family, your work, your group, your only chance at  salvation, your reputation, you’ve probably already lost your house, but  worst of all, you lose your identity. This is who you are, now, and  it’s everything you are, so it has to be okay. Things will work out. Ron  promised it would in his When You Need Reassurance. So if we just hold  out a little longer… 
 And  one by one the things that were important, that made everything  worthwhile, fade away, and we free-fall in our chasm, trapped in a  fractured snow globe world that’s left us so we can’t reach at all;  there’s nothing left to reach for. It’s  the ultimate betrayal in the name of help, the one thing this wasn’t  supposed to be, not this time. Some people could shatter upon this  realization, and close themselves up into a tiny little box way deep  inside themselves, and pretend that just because they’re still breathing  it means they’re still alive; or they can go into a fit of rage; or  they figure they can commit suicide; or they can walk away. Sometimes we  go through shades of all these stages. 
 But  the amazing thing is that there is a beautiful world out here waiting  for us, and it isn’t separated by titanium bulletproof glass. Identities  that are our own,  dreams, goals, friendship, family, joy, teammanship, help, exquisite  moments, are all possible and graspable and they can be yours. No  scarcity. No strings attached.
 It’s  an interesting journey reclaiming life after it’s been molded into a  shadow of what life can be, and after the shackles of what can or should  exist are broken and cast aside. There’s a whole world full of awesome  and friendly people, of fascinating philosophies and ideas, of life and  nature experiences to be had, welcoming you with open arms — yet these  things were only supposed to exist in the confines of Scientology… it  has to be experienced to be believed. 
 For  me, it makes the painful parts worth it, because at least – at last –  the pain becomes transient, and the lying doesn’t have to be a necessary  part of living, and prosperity, joy, unfettered existence, becomes  real. 
 I  can keep what for me is good about the philosophy, and use it as I want  to, and when I want to, and my life is finally mine to live. 
 I  want others to enjoy the gains I’ve had, and I can finally say that  without the little voice in the back of my head saying, “Gains, sure,  but would I want anyone to have the experience that  I’ve had? No!” Being half-in and half-out is awful; I lived that for 18  months. True, I had less to lose than many still “in”: I never accepted  the derogatory term “wog” and had lots of friends and family not in  Scientology; my family all called it quits individually; I had no  boyfriend, children, relatives in the S.O.; my job was secure; and even  though things were hard for a while and there were growing pains after  leaving, I would do it all again. All the painful experiences over the  past year, summed up, still doesn’t come close to one week of being in  that organization, not able to communicate openly, fruitlessly trying to  fix things, ramming against that snow globe glass, trying to understand  what was wrong with me that I couldn’t grasp. That was true pain.
 I  want all my friends, and my comrades, to be free of that. You deserve a  beautiful, rich, full life. I hope you can hold it in your hands, and  know that everyone you love can hold it, too."
 Sincerely,
Joanna Cook
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